a silver lining: a poem

a silver lining

It was dark when I was in my room 

The only person I can talk to is myself

It was dark when I was crying 

to release all the pain that I’ve been holding since 

I was broken. 

I was broke, not because of love; 

I was broke, not because of people who hate me,

I was broke, not because of my friends who left me when they had a plan to go anywhere, and they didn't invite me..

But I was broke, not knowing why I suddenly felt unworthy.

When I was lying in my bed, 

full of negative thoughts in my head 

I don’t know what happened to me

My tears suddenly dropped, my head full of sweat 

I closed my eyes and I felt my body was drowning in my tears. What happened to me, what happened to me, I whispered.

When I opened my eyes, I saw nothing but the silver lining 

There’s hope, there’s hope, that’s what I've said 

When I was drowning in my tears and the sweat of anxiety

when the silver lining appears, 

The darkness in my mind turns into magnificent light;

The silver lining helps me to think wondrously.

The silver lining refreshes my mind and helps me to flee 

from my downhearted world.

I was ill at that time, wasn’t I? — but now I feel better. 

The problem is overthinking; the only problem is myself.